Quixotic design

2006-07-28T18:14:00.000-07:00

David

Wow! That's about all I can think when I watch this.

Humor me....

2005-12-12T14:04:00.000-08:00

If you are reading this, if your eyes are passing over these words, please post a comment with a completely made up and fictional memory of you and me. I saw this one other person's blog and it has been very interesting reading all of the different (some disturbing) memories that people have come up with.

So go ahead, write a little paragragh. Then do the same on your blog. I can't wait to read what you've come up with.

2005-10-10T16:50:00.000-07:00

and your little dog too...

Halloween 2003

2005-08-31T16:45:00.000-07:00

"When you're a Bear of Very Little Brain, and you think of things, you find sometimes that a thing which seemed very thingish inside you is quite different when it gets out into the open and has other people looking at it."

A. A. Milne

2005-08-23T16:34:00.000-07:00

"To love is to place our happiness in the happiness of another"
G. Wilhelm Leibniz

Congrats, D & C!

2005-08-17T15:04:00.000-07:00

"Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think." Christopher Robin to Pooh
- A. A. Milne

My Lunchdate

2005-08-16T17:02:00.000-07:00

I swear I'm not mean person, but I've got this friend at work that I'm trying to shake. Let me first explain that I met her in training for my new job I started just over a month ago. I ended up sitting next to her in the training class (assigned seats, BTW) I didn't go up and introduce myself to her initiate anything. Over the three weeks of class we'd chat during breaks and would sit together at lunch. Again, I'd sit and she'd join me. I'd even tried bringing a book to read while eating. In hopes that she'd not want to disturb me. Alas, she had no qualms talking to me with my nose a buried as I could politely keep it buried.

She is a nice person, but she does seem to dominate any conversation. Full of stories about her many dates, the men she's chatting with online, her children, her ex-husband and/or more often than not her ex-husband now wife. Anytime I try and start to talk about something about me, she'll spin it to go into something about what going on with her. Ugh!

I kept thinking that once we were out of training, knowing that we were going to different departments that I "lose" her. Not a chance. She quickly found my extension in the directory and called to arrange our lunches. She told me that she had to take her lunch at one, to just meet her down there. She didn't ask me, mind you, she told me. For the next couple of weeks, I'd get emails or calls to let me know if she was tied up with an account or waiting for her lunch to be delivered, and she'd call when to come down. I would never know how to respond, except to say, okay and comply.

Finally, I had it. I grew hungry waiting for her sometimes and the sheer fact that I just really didn't want to eat lunch with her, drove me to lie and tell her that I'd have to start taking my lunch a half an hour earlier from now on, starting tomorrow. Now I feel guilty. Which is the reason this has gone on longer than most people would've let it, but I can't help it. I had to do it, right?

So tomorrow I can bring my book with me to lunch, finally! My co-worker, that I confessed my devious plan to, has been teasing me. She asked what would I do if she found a way to move her lunch too? Guess I'll be back to square one.

2005-08-14T22:36:00.000-07:00

My Linus

2005-08-14T21:28:00.000-07:00

So here's the entry where I'll rave about my husband and how lucky I am to have him. I honestly didn't think I could ever use the word "soulmate", it always sounds so "hokey" whenever I would hear someone say that they'd met their soulmate and that they were blissfully happy. I get the blissfully happy part. I can see how that's possible , but the soulmate part I didn't think I'd ever be able to wrap my head around.

My husband's my soulmate.
We started dating and immediately felt comfortable enough to start sharing bits about our not-so-perfect childhoods. It was comforting to be able to share these stories with someone else and not get the typical "I'm sorry" responses and the expressions of sympathy (and sometimes disbelief) that would normally make me want to retreat and take back everything I'd said out of shame. I was able to tell him these stories and what I got back from him was understanding, comfort and validation. He was able to make it okay and enabled me to get past it. We were able to help each other learn from our pasts.

From those discussions, we started talking about marriage and having children very early on in our relationship. It's how we both knew why we had found each other when we did. It was at one point in his "wooing" of me (he wrote poems to me along with making many many mix tapes) that he wrote to me and said that he had always loved me, he just hadn't met me until when he was supposed to.
Isn't that great?
Now you see what I mean, right?

Anyway, aside from our similiar childhoods, we had a lot of interests that matched and, more importantly, complimented each others. I had never felt able to share all of my wants and dreams with anyone before. But "Linus", (not his real name but now you know where I get my username from) has a type of personality that he doesn't pretend to be anything he's not He's very honest that way. If you like who he is, great. If not, that's fine too. That inspired me to be honest about who I am and wanted him to know everything about me. About my depression (side effect from the upbringing), my dreams of becoming a personal chef, my previous marriage and why it really didn't work out...and other things. He listened, accepted all of those things about me and has stuck by me.

I was moved to write about him today, because tomorrow is his birthday. I just wish I can truly express to him how much I appreciate and love him.
He has, in many ways, saved me.
As corny as it may sound, I wish for everyone to find their "Linus".

2005-08-06T18:21:00.000-07:00

First entry

2005-08-06T17:50:00.000-07:00

So....here I am. I was out with my husband and new friends and heard so much about how much they get out of writing in their respective blogs and I envied them. The fact that they can sit down and write their feelings, wants, what was happening in their lives and it sound interesting and intelligent. I never really thought I'd have anything interesting to say (write). I was worried that I'd fall into my rut of talking about my girls. I always end up talking about them. It's so easy. But what I want to talk and write about here...I want to be more personal...more about who I am. Not just a mom or wife. But a silly, loving, smart ( at least I think I am), adventurous yet sometimes timid woman. So here goes......here's where I'll write about all my wants and dreams. Maybe tripping over a means to make a few come true.